As the twilight closed around me
And I drifted deep in sleep
Then I fancied I crossed beyond the veil
Beyond the mighty deep,
To a bright and glorious region
Far surpassing and sod
There to feel a mighty judgment
Rendered by the hand of God.

Then I stood as if a stranger
For no one beckoned me to them
No one's arms outstretched to meet me
And my eyes with tears grew dim,
Though I wandered back and forward
Seeking my kindred far and near
Hungrily searching for my loved ones
Who on earth had been so dear.

Then I saw a lovely mother
As she passed before my view
And her husband was beside her
Telling her his love so true,
Then I saw my little baby
Gently cuddled on her breast
And I leaped to clasp him fondly
For he was fair and dear and blessed.
"Baby boy,” I cried, "Don't you know me?
But I guess he never heard
For his dimpled arm held tightly
To the mother he preferred.

I alone did watch in torment
And I ached beneath the daze
"He was mine," l faintly whispered
As they passed before my gaze.
How my whole self yearned to hold him
And to stroke his golden hair
But no longer could I claim him
And I felt complete despair.

My love so deep, but my little darling
Never knew me when I smiled
He'd been given to another
Loving father, wife, and child.
I could see such fond embraces
My little blossom in their family
And l wept when I realized
That this was eternity.

I remembered that in earth life
He had been my very own
I never sealed this love I had
And now I was all alone.
I'd been intent on earthly goals
l had married for life alone
Now that was past with nothing left
I had reaped just what I'd sown.

Then l remembered my lovely daughter
She was such a faithful one
And I felt that she would know me
When her life on earth was done.
So I waited for the moment
To clasp her close to me
To reunite as mother and child
Through all eternity.

As I saw her coming,
I ran to hold her near
She turned her back as l approached
As if she didn't hear.
"I'll do anything," I pleaded,
"Please don't leave me here alone;
"l went to the valley of the shadow of death
"To bring you to our home."

Then she looked so filled with wonder
I will never forget her voice
As she moved her hand from out of my grasp
And said, "Mother, this was your choice."
Thus she slipped out from my clutches
And left me weeping there
She turned to meet the man she loved
With sparkling eyes so fair.

He whispered that he loved her
And walked forth side by side
And celestial glory
A young man and his bride.
Heaven brought peace to those
Who were sealed in mortal life
But to me it brought fulfillment
Of loneliness and strife.

Jealously I watched the others
And I yearned to have my mate
And I knew my own self’s doing
Had meted me this fate.

For I remembered back to earth life
When eternity was far away
How I’d said, “I love John so,
“I can have him at least today.”
And pondering now the vastness
The phrase now pierced my heart
My husband and my children
“Until death do you part.”

All alone, “Oh God of heaven,
“This one thing I cannot part
“Not to have my darling sweetheart
“Whom I love with all my heart,

“Not to have him close beside me
“Not to know his tender care,”
And I cried, “Someone help me.
“This is more than I can bear.”

Then I started to my senses
Drenched within a pool of sweat
Glad to know a dream I’d visioned
I could still be happy yet.

And I prayed, “Dear God, please keep me,
“Spare me just another day,
“That I might enter the temple
“And be sealed IN THINE OWN WAY.”
Now with my eternal companion
Children sealed to us our very own
So, when Heaven’s realm I enter
I will not be all alone.